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| Prayers by Quétinbec 08/11/2008, 4:06am PDT | ||||
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| Sometimes my ex-girlfriend Skypes me and sings me prayers.
I told her to join squash clubs and sewing and gardening classes to make new friends in her new city, but after some seedy guy tried to pick her up at the pool, she gave up and joined a cultish church. It’s full of sad middle aged Asian ladies who were too slow to find a husband and became spinsters. She takes it very seriously because it’s all she has and these people don't 'judge' her. I end up having arguments with her where I try to convince her that God isn’t real so she won't devote herself so completely to this church, which sucks but I probably don’t believe that. She APOLOGIZES to me for believing in God and says she only believes because she’s stupid and simple, and it fucks me up friends, let me tell you! The prayers make me cry too. The worst ones are the ones about finding God and leaving “empty dreams” and “hollow wishes” in the past. Sometimes she cries when she sings them. She says she sings them to me because she knows she’s too old and stupid to be with me in this life and worries my sins will keep me from reaching heaven where she will be able to be with me. She paid for a four month Asian holiday with me and I promised her we'd live in Auckland together. I hang a shirt from the bunk above me and have a cry. |
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Prayers by 08/11/2008, 4:06am PDT  The saddest thing by 08/12/2008, 4:48pm PDT |
