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| Aaaaaaiiiiiieeeeee! Fucked up. (sort-of-dream-related E/N) by curst 08/04/2003, 10:37am PDT | ||||
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| Quick and dirty googling reveals that this is for real, but I still don't quite believe that it actually happened to me over the weekend: sleep paralysis.
Holy shit! Supposedly it happens when your brain is still in the REM state of sleep, but you wake up. I don't know how the hell that can BE, but there it is - it's a confirmed phenomenon. And it's fucking scary. First, and probably foremost, you can't fucking move. At least not voluntarily. Not one goddamn muscle. I wanted to kick and scream like one of Rititard's students, but I couldn't make a noise let alone move an inch. All the scarier was the fact that I couldn't breathe voluntarily. My immediate first thought after "WTF?" is "okay, breathe deep", and that was quickly followed up by "NO REALLY WTF?!", then I realized I was going to suffocate myself, then mercifully I noticed that I *was* breathing just like one does during sleep... it just wasn't under my control. I didn't hallucinate badly - THANK GOD - I just saw that the walls of my room, which are blue, had turned pure white and were glowing faintly. Of course that was bad enough since most people who claim to have had near-death experiences almost universally say they were bathed in a white light, or at least saw such a light in the distance. But apparently it could have been much worse - just read that shit in the ABCNews article about people seeing hooded figures or thinking they were raped. One of my coworkers said that during one bad episode (he's gone through this multiple times) his kids were standing nearby and screaming incomprehensibly at him. Still - VERRRRRRRRRRRRY fucked up. It may have only lasted for all of one minute, but it felt like several excruciating hours. And I've never gone through anything like this - maybe it was the lack of sleep over the past few days (helping my sister move in a new house) that helped caused it? That ABCNews article mentioned its ties to sleep deprivation, so I have to wonder. One the one hand I want to sleep 10 hours a day for the rest of my life to maybe help preventing it from happening again, but on the other hand I'm not sure I'll EVER be able to go back to sleep. |
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Aaaaaaiiiiiieeeeee! Fucked up. (sort-of-dream-related E/N) by 08/04/2003, 10:37am PDT  Re: Aaaaaaiiiiiieeeeee! Fucked up. (sort-of-dream-related E/N) by 08/04/2003, 10:58am PDT |
